I was just laying down, attempting to go to sleep. And these thoughts began to run through my head. They started out my normal, depressed thoughts, and began to evolve. I started to think about what I hate about this world. Well, long story short, I felt an unusual urge to post a journal about it, so here it is.

I hate the world, because it is structured around lies. We are raised being told that it is bad to lie, but are punished for it. If what we say is not considered friendly it is rude. If we tell others what we think about them, if we honestly tell them, and it is "bad" in any way then it is considered insulting. So we are taught to lie to protect the feelings of others. Of course we already lie to protect ourselves, this is unavoidable. Perhaps lying in general is unavoidable. But it bugs me. Because of this, noone knows what others actually think about themselves, so they begin to make stuff up for themselves. Either they think everyone loves them, or everyone hates them. This in turn leads to arrogance, or depression. Eventually people become so used to lying they do so to cover up harmful actions. They can do anything, and with a well designed lie get away with it. Conflicts are caused when lies are revealed, causing tension and in turn more lies. Such a vicious circle...

This world sucks. I can't see a way around this problem. I don't care so much about lying on occasion, its the fact that it has become the basis for how we socially work today. We have become so good at knowing when and why to lie. So only half of what we want to, or need to say gets said.

If you actually read this I thank you. It likely doesnt even make sense to you, most of what I write these days seems to be scattered and unclear. If it is clear, don't pay it any mind it's probably just my mind reading too much into things. I do that too. Honestly this rant couldn't possible serve a purpose for it is pointing out a problem that cannot be solved. Still I decided to indulge my unusual urges.